I never thought I would have to do this. To be honest, I never gave much thought to sexuality at all. Maybe typical of an asexual person, it never seemed important to me. I thought I would just be able to carry on without ever mentioning it to anyone. But in hindsight, I realise that my sexuality has had a huge impact on both my friendships and relationships.
I don’t know what compelled me to come out with it so suddenly. One of my friends was making some sexual jokes and it was making me feel uncomfortable. I realised that I just didn’t understand these things, and probably never would. So I told him I was asexual.
I was surprised to find that telling him actually made me feel a lot better. He was very supportive and helped me see the positives in it. Somehow that actually seemed to bring us closer together.
For the longest time, I thought that no one would like me if they knew the truth. It’s kind of sad that I thought people only liked me because they wanted to have sex with me. I suppose that’s what the vast majority of my experiences in life have been like.
Maybe that’s why I was in denial for so long. I wanted so badly to be someone else that I forced myself to engage in relationships that I had no interest in. Really, I only have myself to blame for that. But I’ve come a long way since then. It’s time for me to show the world who I really am.
This is actually a journal entry from the day I came out to one of my friends for the first time. Now it’s been almost a year since then. It’s amazing to see how far I’ve come! There have definitely been some challenges along the way, which you can read about here. But I think the positives far outweigh the negatives.
So I hope this might provide some encouragement if you are thinking about coming out. Regardless of your gender, regardless of your sexuality, you deserve to be able to express yourself authentically. I hope my blog will be able to help you with that. If you would like to hear more stories like this then please subscribe to read more. And if you have your own stories to share, I would love to hear them!
Like most asexual people, it took me a while to understand my sexuality. As a kid, I always assumed I was too young for that kind of thing, so I never gave it much thought. I was always slightly bemused when my peers would make sexual comments, but I thought…Keep reading…